Sweet Dreams

I woke up this morning from a really sweet dream.


Okay! It was a tad awkward, too!


I was having a romance with Susanna Reid, the BBC morning news presenter. Goodness me, I do find her attractive, but I didn't think I fancied her in that way - certainly not enough to be cast in a leading role of one of my quirky dreams! But, there she was.


The important thing about the dream is not so much about Reid, but it was a crucial reminder of just what I want in my next relationship. Over the past week, although I realise I have been pretty hormonal, I have been thinking about my ex quite a bit. I have missed her and gone over scenarios in my head about our relationship and how it ended; and, of course, I have contemplated calling or writing to her. I'm glad I have not! I have even been spending time wondering if I will ever have a relationship like that again. With this dream, I realised

that in some ways I don't want to have a relationship like I did before.

Quite frankly, I want to really "desire" my next partner and feel excited by her (or him, even). It is not that I was not attracted to my ex, because she was attractive and feminine and all of that, but I just did not always have that " I wanna jump your bones" feeling with her. I could never totally understand it, but I always felt like there was something missing and it bugged me.


So, yes, this dream served a very important role in reminding me that I don't need to go backwards - to think of my ex and all the things I miss - but to go forward, for the things that I really want and did not get out of my relationship with her. I am glad for this realisation and I am looking for to the day when I meet the person who does that for me, which I know will happen.


In the meantime, thanks to Susanna Reid for the inspiration. I might have to watch ITV, instead, for my morning news for a few days, so I don't feel a bit weird, though. lol